COLD

A four letter word that has lingered my mind for the past one month.

Have tried all I can to push it away, but in mind it became a growth.

It interfered with my normal routine and a hazard to my health.

Had to look for a remedy but my mind was filled with filth.

It’s hard to play apart in your life that really doesn’t define who you really are inside,

Putting a picture that projects a different view of things is to subside.

Indeed being cold inside and trying to beat the extra mile in being warm outside

Difficult, but it’s like changing a word to mean the same like saccharide.

That’s another name meaning sweet, but that’s passive

When cold you lack affection, warmth, feeling, you become unemotional calculating and repulsive,

Positive becomes negative, with time the situation becomes corrosive,

And you long for a palliative.

That’s a remedy in search of warmth, but to me it was an exploration

Since the feeling was kinda new, it was like some kind of a tour to the nation

Meeting all kinds of people around, and portraying a negative action

That was my obligation and I did it without hesitation

The affirmation of your weakness sickens your meekness

Soon all your liveliness is turned to deep sadness

And everything around you becomes some sort of a wilderness

Wretchedness, dolefulness are a result and you start to long for kindness

Something that is way beyond your control at this stage

The more the days go by the more you become flat with age

Unemotional to every feeling brought out adding points to your mileage

At this stage only a miracle can bring you back, coz your at wreckage

Every part of your body is against you, and you feel like you’re at war

Bed rest is what the doctor offered, but it didn’t work coz u owe

You owe your inner spirit peace, but you can’t attain it coz of what you wore

You wore a negative suit, that led to your illness, thus the COLD won

I started thinking of a remedy, and started listening to the wrong voices

My life at this juncture was useless, and that is as what my determinant says

I had no control of my life, my life was driven and it was at ace

Having a cold is the worst feeling a person can endure, I said that with a sigh

Why should I continue to suffer? Is it worth it really?

Death was the only option, at this stage, coz everybody thought I was rascally

I never gave myself options for a cure, I just wanted to end it, desperately

So I over dozed that night, and took a nap, the pain eased greatly

All this time, all the things I did, everyone I knew, reflected in my mind

It felt like a new beginning and I actually thought it was the end

I started to remember my childhood times, how we used to hold hands

Love we had for each other, the joy, the happiness and I couldn’t allow all this to end

At this moment, when everything was coming to an end, he held my hand

He showed me peace, he taught me love, he gave me faith and a new beginning

I held his hand tightly, I didn’t want to let go, coz this feeling is what have been longing

 I wanted to know more about him, so the bible became my everyday building

It gave a strong foundation, and no one could break since the bond was sealed

Cold, it became a four letter word, that I only heard about, but never to experience it

I grabbed on to what was ahead and not what was on the review

It became a past, that I remember with great joy, coz it became a testimony

A testimony, A Test that I once mourned about, but now am in harmony